(I hate to keep talking about myself but I need to get this out).

I have about a thousand DVD movies and about five hundred CD's. Obviously I love music and love movies even more. They are an escape from reality (especially movies). I am currently in the process of selling my LCD TV and surround sound to simplify my life. I have decided to take my favorite movies and rip then onto my computer so that I could have them available at any given moment and still have the opportunity to be a minimalist. I truly feel that I am just trading one form of consumption for another. I am too afraid of not having these possessions with me in one way or another. Why cant I just get rid of it all and see what life is really like without them? It's so disturbing that these possessions have become attachments to me that I am afraid to part with. Sometimes I wish somebody would break into my house and just steal it all. Maybe one day I will be completely free of all this. Maybe I will wake up and realize that these hardships that I am placing on myself regarding these possessions is the reason why I feel that I want to become a more minimalist person. It seems as maybe that is the whole point. To break free from the confusions and turmoil that these things are causing me.

One day I will be free of all this. Screens have consumed my life and I am getting tired of it. What would life be like without a screen to stair at?

Thanks for listening…..

I had constantly thought about ways to simplifying my life. These thoughts always seem to be about electronics because it seems as though electronic devices have taken the place of organic things since my childhood. I am starting to realize the influence these things have had in my life. Of course these things have helped me graduate college and have kept me “entertained” throughout my life but to what expense? Instead of having discussions with my family we watched shows. Instead of interacting with people on a physical basis I would use a computer. Instead of seeing life I saw a screen. My stomach turns upside down at the thought of losing these objects that I have become so dependent on. I recently canceled my TV and internet services. That caused a knot in my stomach for a few days. It was pure dread canceling these services but I have now realized that as far as the TV is concerned, I do not miss it one bit. As far as the internet service goes, I am currently typing this response on my neighbors unsecured network. I am addicted to the point where I will steal somebody else's property for my own amusement.